99 Problems
Times are really tough right now. As a newly single mom juggling toddlers, a full-time job and rebuilding my life from scratch—life has never been harder or more complicated.
People tell me all the time how strong they think I am. They want to know how I am coping so well, and how the heck I found the balls to just walk away and start over. I always say the same thing. I have to. Non-functioning is a non-option.
I have TONS of things (and people) that help me get through the day. My short list includes my faith, family and close friends. It really does take a village and my village is freakin’ awesome.
But I’ve learned (the hard way) that I need specific strategies to help the minute-to-minute functioning. Tactics I can employ at the drop of the hat to ward off the chaos. I need a plan to get rid of the constant lump in my throat and pit in my stomach.
So the next time someone asks, “How do you do it?” I am going to just tell the truth. There is one specific person almost entirely responsible for my current (I’ll admit fleeting) sanity: Jay Z.
But let me back up.
For years, I’ve been a closeted car-cryer. My sister Kelly is the same way. Put an even remotely emotional song on while I’m in the car and I well up. Seriously, for some reason, in the car, I am Old Faithful. The weird thing is that I don’t cry much outside the car. It’s like somehow every sad song—and even the happy ones—seem to directly apply to my life while I am driving. I can’t help it. Just go ahead and cue the waterworks.
These days, any song about love, children, love lost, potential love, falling in love, secret love, forgiveness, breaking up, weddings, dads and daughters, moms and daughters, holidays, puppies, birds, and ANY country music makes me instantly teary.
So I came up with a new plan. I now listen, almost exclusively, to Jay Z when I am in the car. It’s impossible to listen to Big Pimpin’ or Dirt off Your Shoulder and feel lonely. I triple-dog-dare you to listen to Empire State of Mind or Can I Get A…and not dance.
Go ahead. I’ll wait.
At least now I have 99 Problems but crying at stoplights ain’t one.
In fact, I am looking to add to my TEAR-FREE playlist. What’s music pulls you out of a slump?
October 13th, 2010 at 12:22 am
Love it and u:)
October 13th, 2010 at 7:25 am
all the songs from GLEE !!! no shame. xoxo
October 13th, 2010 at 8:49 am
ABBA especially Dancing Queen, it’s a great pick.me.upper. {great post my lovely} By the way, are there tryouts to be in your Village? Where can I get an application?
XOXO
October 13th, 2010 at 9:08 am
I’m glad you found your own personal Jesus… who knew he hailed from Brooklyn?
Your voice is so resonant. It’s good to see you in pixels again.
Hova works for me too. Rage Against the Machine, Public Enemy kick-start better than caffeine, and when I need to take it down a notch, Canon in D does the trick.
October 13th, 2010 at 11:03 am
Love it Pammie! You are such an awesome chick! OK, here’s what pulls me out of a slump:
Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana. And anything by Rage Against the Machine!
October 13th, 2010 at 2:22 pm
You know my answer…Baby Got Back.
October 13th, 2010 at 9:26 pm
i, too, often start getting emotional listening to my country music in the car — and i almost exclusively listen to country.
so my go-to is KNX 1070 or KFWB 980, and i do that whole news-radio, “give us 22 minutes, and we’ll give you the world” thing.
October 14th, 2010 at 1:27 am
oh my gosh we are one in the same! I am a HUGE crier in the car, which is why I don’t put my makeup on until I get to work because it just all gets washed off wiht the tears:) I have been tearing up lately every time I hear Jack Johnson for some reason. And to pull me out of a slump and get me dancing? katy perry
October 16th, 2010 at 4:28 pm
Your love for your daughters, (motherhood) your job and your blogging is unquestionable; however you are using this to escape reality. There is no passion in your writing anymore, and you’re directing all your negativity to someone who you may still be in love with.
For Better or For Worse….was the marriage vows you made but failed to keep by divorcing.
Life is too short not to try and recapture love once found.
Find forgiveness in your heart, Life is a struggle, single, married, divorced, or widowed.
Sometimes we discover that life is a circle and comes back around stronger and more significant than one could ever imagine
October 16th, 2010 at 7:41 pm
Call me weird, but rap music always brings me out of a slump. But you know that about me already, Pug. You also know that I speak my mind, for better or worse, so I can let the most recent post go unanswered.
What I know to be true about you is that there is ALWAYS passion in your writing, or you wouldn’t do it. I am in awe of how you express your feelings, uncensored, and put yourself out there like you do on this blog.
Those of us that know you and are going through this with you and have seen first hand what you’ve been through, also know that you did your very best to honor your vows. You remain strong, and do what’s right for your family, and you’ll never make the wrong decision. Heart you!!!
October 18th, 2010 at 1:52 pm
I separated from my husband when I was still on maternity leave, and moved out when my son was only three months old. It wasn’t strength that got me through though. You’re absolutely right about “non-functioning is not an option” — when it’s what you have to do, you do it. You find a way to get through with as few tears as possible.
If you know in your heart that you did all you could, then there isn’t much left to do. Don’t ever let people (ie Becky, above) tell you you’ve failed. You have not failed. Also? Your writing is just as passionate as ever.
And now, songs. I play these repeatedly in the car: “Float On” by Modest Mouse, “Empire State of Mind” (yes!), “Say Hey (I Love You)” by Michael Franti and Spearhead, “Single Ladies” by Beyonce (yes, seriously), “Forever” by Chris Brown (yeah yeah he’s a horrible guy, but this song is awesome), “Mint Car,” by the Cure, and a few by Michael Jackson: “Rock With You,” “PYT,” “The Way You Make Me Feel” and “Don’t Stop ‘Til You Get Enough.”
October 21st, 2010 at 12:10 am
There are people out there that have the guts to make their life what it should be (eg – you) and people out there who just try to make you doubt yourself because of their insecurity (eg – Becky above.) No one can EVER judge your decisions without walking in your shoes. And though I have never walked in them, I have walked with them, heard about their journey and seen how the path that they have been on have tried to destroy them. You are doing the right thing and if it is Jay Z you need, play it loud and proud.
PS – notice the influence of The Oatmeal.
October 21st, 2010 at 12:10 am
Um. Okay Becky. Moving on.
I love it when people who aren’t in your shoes have all the answers to your problems. Isn’t that terrific? =)
Girl…you’ve got some serious swagger and I love you like i’ve known you my whole life…and that tells me that you are Wonderful.
You are doing awesome, even on your worst days. Because you and I and those closest to you know that you did what you did to protect those beautiful daughters of yours and give them a chance at a beautiful and healthy life.
God Bless.
October 21st, 2010 at 12:27 am
I like you more than Becky. Clearly. That’s all I’m gunna say about that. xoxo
And songs? Far East Movement. Anything by them. I’ve loved them for about four years now and they only get more and more amazing with time. Listen. No crying with Kev Nish blasting out of your speakers. Promise.
October 21st, 2010 at 1:43 am
Hey Pammie! I had no idea that you were going through all of that stuff that you mentioned above. I just wanted you to know that I am sorry; however, the good news is if you are anything like the Pammie Sue I knew from L122 or J109, well then I know you will come out alright! Stay strong sister, I am here for you if you need me- please don’t judge my grammar- I miss you!
Steph
October 21st, 2010 at 1:57 am
I love Jay Z first of all, do you have his ‘Danger Mouse” CD .. he one where he covers all the Beatles songs? Good God it is the bomb I’ll rip ya one. Music takes me places too right now I am stuck on the Social Network soundtrack, its dark so maybe you should steer clear of that. In the car I always have it on Sirius CHILL because I need to chill 99% of the time or I’m gonna yell at someone.
Hang in there you will get through this and one thing is for sure in this world The Sun Will Rise Again Tomorrow that you can count on <– Oprah.
October 21st, 2010 at 10:31 am
Pam- U know that haters only hate the people they can’t be and the things they can’t have so please don’t feed into the B.S. that “Becky” is dishing out. You are not a failure! I think people who stay in marriages even if it’s miserable and unhealthy are failures. You did what was right for yourself but most especially for your girls. I LOVE YOU so no matter what I am here for you! xoxo
FYI: “Lindsey” is right the Jay Z vs the Beatles Mash Up CD by Danger Mouse is so freaking awesome, a definite uplift and must have!
xoxo eternally…let’s have a Mommies’ Night Out soon…need to vent and catch up with you!
October 21st, 2010 at 4:23 pm
Just to clarify: The fact that someone would post that my writing lacks passion is what got under my skin here. I feel like I’ve never been more passionate, raw or vulnerable.
The other commentary on my personal decisions really don’t bother me. I am totally open to dissenting opinions–I truly believe that this blog SHOULD be a conversation. And that’s why I put myself out there. I just ask my readers to keep an open mind. What’s right for me and my girls might not be what’s right for you. And therein lies the beauty of it all–I get to call the shots in my own life. Nobody knows what happened in my marriage except me and him. Divorce is a big freakin’ deal I am not taking lightly.
My point is this, if you hate my writing and think I make bad choices, then DON’T READ MY BLOG! There is not a Becky listed in my iPhone contacts, so as far as I’m concerned you must not know me that well anyway. That is all. Send.
October 21st, 2010 at 4:28 pm
So you can run and tell that, homeboy!!
October 21st, 2010 at 4:51 pm
i got peeved at the “passion” thing too. what is personal writing, if not passionate? maybe not everyone shares or sees or understands your passion, but it’s the reason you put the pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard, as it were).
October 21st, 2010 at 5:11 pm
I think your writing has ALWAYS been passionate especially in the last few months with everything that’s been going on. I think that it’s your life and your blog…no one can judge you for being who you really truly are and if they are judging you then it is because they see in you what they dislike about themselves. Maybe “Becky” lacks passion in her own personal life, mybe her life is dull and meaningless. Maybe she is stuck in a marriage that isn’t working and she refuses to move on and move forward…whatever her reasoning for being the way she is, it still doesn’t give her the right to be all “preachy” and judgemental. BTW, “Becky” do you have a blog? Is your writing passionate? If so, why don’t you link your blog in the comment section so we can all “judge” how truly “passionate” your writing is and also judge your life choices…let’s see how you like being in the hot seat, Becky!
October 21st, 2010 at 5:32 pm
Hey – Is it just me or do you think “Becky” has an agenda? I’m left to wonder what “team” she’s playing for. I think Becky is the one who needs to move on.
October 21st, 2010 at 5:48 pm
HOLLA if you are “TEAM PAM!” I’m a “TEAM PAM” die hard fan for life!
xoxo Pam.
October 21st, 2010 at 10:39 pm
Julianne’s post was the best by far… “And you can go tell that…” – Awesome.
October 22nd, 2010 at 2:49 pm
Wow, I’m a hater for wanting to see a marriage and a family survive and thrive. Saving Marriage in a Culture of Throw Away Relationships is not popular, I see.
I don’t know you, I have not walked in your shoes. I just happened to see a video and news clip on you and your beautiful family in OC. I saw your blog and read the repsonses. It rubbed me the wrong way I guess, how all these bitter women are actually encouraging you to throw your family away. They seem to want you to be just like them. Join the club! Misery loves company! To me, a family is worth saving. Unless of course your husband abused you, cheated on you, won’t work, or hold down a job, then of course it’s time to move on. I don’t know you, but from what I have read, I don’t see that he beat you, cheated on you, didn’t provide for you, or was a big monster. You obviously loved him once, made vows before family and friends. “For better or worse”. Marriage is the hardest in the early years, there is something to be said for couples who seek counseling, try to work things out, and let each other know what is needed to sustain the love, the love that brought them together in the first place, and keep a family together. All marriages have problems. Sure you can get divorced, get remarried. Then, you have a whole new set of problems. Step-parent, step-children, broken familes. What a mess! Who will love your beautiful girls more than their own father? Sometimes, men are clueless as to what you need from them, until they are faced with a divorce. They can change. Unless you are absolutely certain he is uncapable of changing, uncapable of loving you and your beautiful girls and you will never again find or feel the love you once shared, then go ahead and throw it all away. They say I’m the hater? I think not! I think I’m on the side of love! As for me, I’m a mother of two grown children & my life is very full and fulfilling, thank you. My daughter is a doctor, married to a succesful lawyer & I have two beautiful granddaughters, which is perhaps why I was drawn to say something. I don’t hate your writing, obviously it stirred me up enough to have give a different opinion to all the marriage haters.
Best of luck to you Pam. I hope you at least ponder and look deep in your heart, before rushing to end your marriage. You looked like such a happy family in the pictures and video.
October 22nd, 2010 at 3:48 pm
So…if you don’t know Pam, you don’t know the circumstances. Becky…shut up.
October 22nd, 2010 at 4:35 pm
Becky – Why don’t you take your judgemental attitude to those you don’t know and shove off. For those of us that know Pam and know what is going on in her life and her marriage, we know what she is doing is in the absolute best interest of her kids and her life. She doesn’t need to share the details of her challenges so that closed minded people like you understand her situation. She is a brilliant woman and you should know from reading her blog that she isn’t going to do something on a whim.
I have been married almost 20 years and I understand the value of marriage, but I also understand that no matter how much you try and put into a marriage, not all of them work. And in those instances it is much more detrimental to the kids.
So why don’t you go kick a puppy or whatever it is you do for fun and leave Pam alone.
October 22nd, 2010 at 5:33 pm
Hey, Becky. I’m as big a traditionalist and believer in sticking it out when you’ve made a commitment to marry as anybody, but unless you have all the details in a given situation, it’s probably best that you keep your tongue in check. You never know what horrible things were going on in someone’s household that made leaving become the best option for those kids. Divorce is always painful, always a tragedy, but sometimes the only way… That’s why God in His mercy gave us the option when those conditions are met.
October 22nd, 2010 at 7:12 pm
Bravo Mel! Perfectly put.
She probably does kick puppies… dogs don’t stay with their mates after their babies are born, so they must totally be failures too.
October 22nd, 2010 at 7:30 pm
I’m not on anybody’s “Team”, I don’t have my own blog. I’m just someone who believes in keeping familes together, unless there is abuse or infidelity. Since this isn’t a private blog, I think I have a right to voice my opinion, even if I’m not on the “team” against ending a marriage.
Mel- I’m sure she is a brilliant woman. I’m not judging her. However, she sounds to me like she just isn’t sure about the life changing decision she is making. She is crying in her car when she hears love songs. Listening to Jay Z, so she doesn’t. It just makes me sad for her. Sounds to me, like there is still love there. Seeing the pictures and video with her husband and two little girls, such a beautiful family to lose, if one isn’t sure. I hope they have at least tried marriage counseling. It helps to have a disinterested third party to hear both sides, someone who’s not on one side’s “team” encouraging a split. If her husband is a monster, I understand. But, if he is just clueless and self centered, perhaps with outside help, she could turn him around. He must be a really horrible person, incapable of change?
I had issues early in my own marriage, however, I never wanted to end our marriage with divorce. I thought he might be incapable of changing. Had I not sought marriage counseling to help us through our issues, we may have.
Even when at times it seemed that there was no solution but divorce. I have never regretted staying through the good and bad times. After all, that is what marriage is…For better or worse.
While raising our family, my husband learned that he didn’t come first, and discovered how much closer he became to me and the children while learning that he had to love himself before he could embrace his family….it took some time, prayer, and my endeavor to seek God and outside help to discover how deeply I loved him and needed him in our lives……
October 23rd, 2010 at 11:53 pm
Becky–you stated that Pam is using this means as an escape … I’m wondering what you’re escaping from that you have to keep responding to a person you don’t even know. Maybe you should pay more attention to your own life.
Pam—it’s so great to hear you use your voice. It’s beautiful, passionate, and so deserving. Keep talking!
October 24th, 2010 at 3:22 pm
Seriously, Becky…who hired you?
October 25th, 2010 at 5:16 pm
Becky – Let me assure you. There is no love. He won’t change and isn’t worth any additional heartache and effort. Now move on.
October 25th, 2010 at 5:22 pm
Pammie,
Wow, Look at the support you have! I often read your blog only because I find your postings so…um…wait whats the word passionate? and oh yes, hilarious, matter of fact, to the point and REAL.
This Becky chic needs to hit the road back to stepford wife land, and carry on with the gals at the tupperware parties. We all know the real Pammie and you have motivated so many people with your writings. Im not a mother, but I am a wife, and I know that if I was unhappy, hell, life is too short to spend my time trying to change someone else. We only live once.
Stevie Wonder, Shania Twain, Phil Collins, Cher, Bette Midler, Lionel Ritchie always gets the brain going and the feet dancing…..and then a few choreography memories and moves back…..
Keep on blogging away Pam!
October 25th, 2010 at 10:24 pm
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October 26th, 2010 at 3:24 pm
First off, Becky- I know Pam in a personal way and as a blogger. Believe me when I say that she has come to the decision of divorce after A LOT of soul searching and AFTER she has tried all other avenues. She wasn’t fleeting or dreamy eyed when she chose divorce.
NO ONE chooses DIVORCE because it is easy or the “next best trend.” Divorce is hard and emotionally, physically, mentally and financially draining.
I have been on both sides of this…I was a young single mom and then I met my current Hubby. We have been married for 7 yrs and together for 10yrs. My Hubby is the step-father (and ONLY father my daughter has ever known), we share a son.
Witnessing the demise of Pam’s marriage has been bittersweet…her ex is a friend of my Hubby’s and it has put both of us on different sides of this situation. I think that my Hubby sympathizes w/ Pam’s ex for a few reasons that are too personal to mention but I sympathize with Pam because as a mom, as the person who carries those children in your womb, your heartaches when they are hurt or sad. Divorce does that, it hurts and makes you sad. Being a single mom hurts and makes you sad. So if listening to Jay Z helps helps Pam to get through the difficult moments let her be. She is not “escaping” from her feelings or her situation, I think if anything she is escaping from the reminders of a love gone wrong. Why should she have to listen to love songs if they make her cry? True, she may have loved her ex once and maybe a part of her always will love him, they share children BUT loving someone and “BEING” in love with them are 2 very different things. Plus, I think it’s courageous of Pam to LOVE herself AND her daughters more than to “fake” loving someone who makes you miserable.
LOVE is not LOVE when it is one sided…
October 26th, 2010 at 3:56 pm
I too am a closet crier and it’s so nice to know that this happens to others! I even get choked up at random commercials sometimes! I’m not going through anything tough right now; it just means that I’m sensitive I guess. Which begs me to ask the question to Becky: can’t Pam just be sensitive to what’s going on around her? Obviously she has a lot going on…
I know this had to be such a tough decision for you, Pam. I’m not in support of divorce (who is?) but can understand that it happens. When kids are involved, it has got to be an even tougher decision. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through. I just don’t understand why Becky assumes you are unsure about your decision just because you cry in the car. Did it ever cross her mind that you are sad for this change and how it will affect your girls or that you’re sad it had to come to this; or your frustrated that after all the work you’ve put into your marriage, this is what has to be done? I definitely cry when I’m frustrated.
“I don’t know you, but from what I have read, I don’t see that he beat you, cheated on you, didn’t provide for you, or was a big monster.” Becky assumes that you haven’t been working through this for awhile, that everything was just peachy because you didn’t air your family’s dirty laundry on your blog. Maybe that’s what Becky thinks is passion? I don’t even know the half of it but I like to think the best in people. I’d like to think you gave your marriage all you’ve got. Obviously you care for your girls more than anything…it’s evident in your blog, or did Becky miss that? This decision doesn’t mean “throwing your family away” but it’s doing what’s best for your family. What if Becky’s husband wasn’t willing to change? Did she ever think about that? Not every problem can be fixed and not every person can be changed. Consider yourself one of the lucky ones, Becky. Not everyone is in your shoes and you should realize that!
What also bothers me is Becky assumes that all this support from Pam’s village is full of marriage haters. Why can’t we be in support of Pam, whatever the outcome is? No one is in support of divorce! We’re for bettering the lives of a strong, courageous woman and her baby girls. Instead of assuming so much Becky, you could offer up suggestions, in case she hadn’t thought of it. It is one thing to make suggestions about what you think is going on and quite another to assume so much about someone’s circumstances you know nothing about and tell them what they should be doing. It sounds like you assume she decided this on a whim. Quit assuming so much, Becky!
PS- I love me some Tupac in times of being “overly sensitive” and sad
Go Team Pam!
xo
October 26th, 2010 at 10:52 pm
Let’s play “All the Ways Becky is Wrong”, shall we?
“how all these bitter women are actually encouraging you to throw your family away.” um, bitter? not so much, thanks. i try to espouse positivity. but thanks for judging even more. throwing away family? she is keeping her family alive and well simply by making this decision.
“my life is very full and fulfilling, thank you.” prove it. go live it.
“I hope you at least ponder and look deep in your heart, before rushing to end your marriage.” because clearly you know that she hasn’t.
“You looked like such a happy family in the pictures and video.” LMAO i can’t even respond to this. i’ve heard the phrase “things aren’t always how they seem”, have you? how about “putting up a good front”? probably not, because a picture and a video are all the proof you need to say that someone should be happy!
“However, she sounds to me like she just isn’t sure about the life changing decision she is making.” um, yes she is. doesn’t mean she can’t lament the end of something she thought would last a lifetime. divorce is the death of a marriage. can’t you cry over something that has died?
“someone who’s not on one side’s “team” encouraging a split.” we’re not encouraging a split, you dense judger. we are supporting her long-fought decision to split. my god, don’t you see the difference?
“He must be a really horrible person, incapable of change?” WOW, YOU GOT ONE RIGHT!
“have never regretted staying through the good and bad times. ” good for you. i am very happy that it worked out for you and yours. that is truly wonderful. that does not mean everyone has had your same good fortune, or that their partner is willing to see the same light as your husband did.
Here’s the big one: “I’m just someone who believes in keeping families together, unless there is abuse or infidelity.” REALLY???? so it’s ok when the husband snorts cocaine on Friday nights, because really he isn’t hitting the wife or cheating on her. maybe he’s a couple-day-a-week pill-popper that can’t bother to get out of bed to go to work sometimes. i mean, he’s still providing right? and there’s no physical pain. and again, no other woman. how about the husband that has decided that not speaking to his wife for days upon days upon days, probably because she burnt the roast last week or something equally inane, is a good idea? that’s not abusive, that’s being an ass. or maybe the husband that wants to work 100+ hours a week, while wife also works full time *and* takes care of the children. but he’s the man and doesn’t think child care nor housework are his duties. there’s no abuse or cheating, but the wife should never consider a better life because hey, they are married. how about the husband that goes on gambling benders for days at a time? casinos, football games, lotto, poker, etc. maybe he even wins back the money a fair amount of the time. but the wife doesn’t know where he is, or if he’s going to be home at all. there are unsavory characters hanging out at some gambling venues. what if he never comes home? and she’s there, working and taking care of the house and the children, sick with worry. so glad he’s not abusing her or cheating on her, though! because that would be the only reason to leave! right?
if your criteria for an acceptable divorce is abuse or cheating, then you have a very narrow-minded view of what real-life is like for some people. you advocate staying in a heartless, loveless marriage, simply because there’s no infidelity nor harm. (don’t deny it, because that is your quote above.) you want women (or men) to stay subservient and miserable, all in the name of “family”. so many people say they wish their parents had gotten divorced, but they “stayed together for the sake of the children”, which backfired due to those same children being exposed to a loveless, dysfunctional so-called partnership.
this is a public blog because Pam has made it so. she also decides what content is included, and what she wants to keep to herself. don’t you dare purport to know the ins and outs of Pam’s decision-making. don’t dare to assume that she has spelled everything out, detail by excruciating detail, from Day One. don’t dare to call us misery-mongers, simply because we support a strong woman who has made a difficult choice. honestly, Becky, just don’t you dare.
October 27th, 2010 at 7:39 pm
I’m personally offended by Beckey’s assumption that just because those of us who have had the unfortunate experience of going through a divorce are coming forward to support Pam, then that means we’re “marriage haters.” You can spout off all you want about love and “for better or worse” — the bottom line is that no one is happy about divorce, it’s HARD, even if it is the right thing to do (hence the tears in the car). And sometimes the only thing to help you through such a difficult situation — mourning the death of something you thought would last forever — is support from friends, even strangers. You aren’t going to change the course of their relationship with your comments about how you have to “work through the hard times” and assuming we’re all trying to recruit people into some “let’s all get divorced!” club is absurd. Put yourself in someone else’s shoes for just two seconds.
November 9th, 2010 at 7:11 pm
I think every one has berated Becky properly but i do have one thing to add. I dont know pams situation but i do know that divorce is a painful decision and not one that is come to lightly. i have had two divorces and not because i couldnt just work it out but drugs and abuse were involved. It took years to cometo the decision to oleave it is nto something you decide over night. If you dont know the situation you shouldnmt judge what she needs now is support for being strong and taking proper care of her children not judgemnet. Just becuae your family is so perfect doesnt mean everyones is. She may have been going through alot fo things we dont know cause its hers to tell to whom she wnats to know. God said that he is the only one to judge so why are you putting yourself in gods shoes. i hope your not a christina because if you are your a hypocrite.
Pam i give you much praise for doing what is write for your children its a hard decision to come to and its painful to live through. I have been there and its not easy. Stay strong and listen to anything to lift your spirits. I will put your family in my prayers..
Ps.Becky I am not a marriage hater im currently married. I support peoples decisions to do what is best for them.
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